" Jaane kya dhoondta hai, yeh mera dil
Tujhko kya chaahiye zindagi "
Tujhko kya chaahiye zindagi "
"wonder, what my heart is searching for...
Life, what do you want...... "
Life, what do you want...... "
( my translation.... forgive me if not proper)
These are the starting lines of a song by Nida Fazli for the hindi movie titled "SUR". Also incidentally this was the same didactic question which i ask to myself every time for all the past and present acts of mine. During my childhood days ( 6-10 years old), i had the peculiar habit and the urge of seeing new places and seeking small adventures on my own. But one of the main disadvantage of my actions was that my parents, friends and relatives are not aware about my whereabouts during that time . This created a panic in my parents hearts and it got worsened when many of my neighbors started to refer me as a "runaway boy". At the same time one advantage of my acts was that i always return back to home within a day on my own, except for two occasions, once my grandmother found me and the other time my mom found me. Whenever i returned back to home there will be many questionings, scoldings, beatings, thrashings, advices etc...so on and on..... and every time i am not able to tell the reasons for my acts, which i really don't know so i always used to keep silent. This silence frustrated my parents a lot and which in turn made me very very sad. This affected my studies in a large way, i used to fail or just clear my exams marginally. As every troubled parents my parents also looked for help from every possible way, they consulted many astrologers and even some psychiatrists. From all of them came a positive reply for my parents, "this kid is a good boy no problems with him", "this boy is smart and normal "etc and so on. But some how my parents came to a decision and said that i can do whatever i want but i have to inform them in advance. This simple thing called FREEDOM or LIBERTY established an crystal clear understanding between me and my parents. After that there is no looking back , in each and every forward step i took , i used to convince my parents and my parents used to convince me and we proceed together.
PARENTING, my goodness, a daunting, frustrating at the same time a pleasurable task. I can aver that my parents are enjoying it a lot, as they have not only managing a menace like me, they are also taking care of my diligent brother and my lovely sister. I feel parenting is a subjective quality and parents are need not be compared with other parents ........Oooooo sorry for digressing ................PARENTING is a completely different topic, i dont want to write about that now. My crux for this post is "Jaane kya dhoondta hai, yeh mera dil" (Wonder, What my heart is searching for), Although currently everything is fine (no problem for anybody because of my small adventure acts), but still i don't know why i did and doing those acts. After those school days acts, i went to hostel in CIT for doing my Engineering degree, there also i did similar kind of acts , many times i got some company and sometimes i did on my own ...they tagged me "NAADODI" ( meaning explorer) . After college, i went to mumbai for work, there also i derived some time to do similar acts .....they tagged me "NEWLIN" ( as i always looked for doing new stuffs). Now, finally in US doing my PhD ....still i do similar acts , now here for my company i have my own car.... but some of my friends says that its an "escaping act" ... but i don't think so.... as i always come back to do what i am supposed to do.
One such act which i did on the thanksgiving break is that i took pencil and paper and rushed to Lincoln parish park and started sketching the lake view ( see below). This, i never did before, but suddenly the thought came and i did that.....reason ??? i dont know????
PARENTING, my goodness, a daunting, frustrating at the same time a pleasurable task. I can aver that my parents are enjoying it a lot, as they have not only managing a menace like me, they are also taking care of my diligent brother and my lovely sister. I feel parenting is a subjective quality and parents are need not be compared with other parents ........Oooooo sorry for digressing ................PARENTING is a completely different topic, i dont want to write about that now. My crux for this post is "Jaane kya dhoondta hai, yeh mera dil" (Wonder, What my heart is searching for), Although currently everything is fine (no problem for anybody because of my small adventure acts), but still i don't know why i did and doing those acts. After those school days acts, i went to hostel in CIT for doing my Engineering degree, there also i did similar kind of acts , many times i got some company and sometimes i did on my own ...they tagged me "NAADODI" ( meaning explorer) . After college, i went to mumbai for work, there also i derived some time to do similar acts .....they tagged me "NEWLIN" ( as i always looked for doing new stuffs). Now, finally in US doing my PhD ....still i do similar acts , now here for my company i have my own car.... but some of my friends says that its an "escaping act" ... but i don't think so.... as i always come back to do what i am supposed to do.
One such act which i did on the thanksgiving break is that i took pencil and paper and rushed to Lincoln parish park and started sketching the lake view ( see below). This, i never did before, but suddenly the thought came and i did that.....reason ??? i dont know????
(After dabbling with photoshop)
Like this i am trying my hands in many other fields......Why iam trying ???? I have no answer......
but one thing is sure, life cannot be taught in school through established courses, it has to be felt through the course of living over the unpredictable events as it unfolds.
I think my PhD is easy ..... let me complete it....
but one thing is sure, life cannot be taught in school through established courses, it has to be felt through the course of living over the unpredictable events as it unfolds.
I think my PhD is easy ..... let me complete it....
